it's a waiting game.

so. here i am. still pregnant. the anticipation is killing me. i know i'm only 37 weeks (today, actually!) but i'm so anxious and excited for lucas to make his debut that i'm trying every home remedy known to man to start labor. i think a lot of the reason i'm so impatient for those *really* painful contractions to start is because i want patrick to experience it with me, and that won't happen with a scheduled c-section. bore-ing. i want him to be able to help me however he can, and if i go into labor spontaneously, that will happen. we'll see. Luke will probably take his sweet time like Lilli did. i shouldn't get my hopes up. (that doesn't mean i'm not putting tabasco sauce on my nachos for dinner!) :)

not a lot else has been going on around here lately.. lots of straightening up around the house. making sure everything is ready to go, *just in case*

apparently all i can think about is this baby.

i'll write whenever i can think about something else. :) haha.

It's time.

So i haven't blogged in God knows how long. For a long time, it was a big source of drama for a lot of people in this little town. But now, i feel like i have all good people in my life, and so - i'm not afraid to post anymore. So much has been happening lately, that i feel like i should at least have some sort of record of it.. this life has become so beautifully challenging i feel like i need to share it with everyone.

i'm back.

and it feels so good.